Happy? or just pretend

Sometimes happy are not show on our face. The expression that show on our face sometimes not represent our reality feelings, maybe we just act in front of the person that we don't want let them see our sadness. The smile on our face just our duzzle paint in front the person that we love or care about.

Lonely

Sudden i feel void, i not sure whether is noboby around me to propitiate my blankness or it was just my redundant worry. Study? Family? Money? Future career? Love? Friendship? or just health? I also don't know why i sudden feel worry or lonely? 

Sometimes when i saw people achieved success no matter in which field i will imagine that i might also same as them. However reality sometimes will not same as what we imagine or dream for. What we imagine must use our will power and confident also ablity to achieve it. So jealous can't help us anything. 

Anciently people always said that : ' your parents so love you that giving you everythings you wants.....so you must not worry about everything include money!" I totally hate to hear this, because they totally not understand me! I just a normall person that have concern by parents that also same as everyone, why must label me differents from other?! I can tell everyone that until now most of the things that i possess of are from my ability and hardworking (ps: but now still need the parents help esspecially the financial and stay part!) 

Fret......all come from seek for desire! But without desire how can we live? How can we improve our life? How can we get respect by people? how can we get our belove? 

ARRRRRRRRRRRR! What i want do now is temporary brush off my worry and enjoy serenity at the moment! My request not too much  right!

What a nice n expensive dinner i had never try recently

Tonight is one of a wonderful time for me because have a chance to having dinner with my dad friends' from US. I can't believe that the sapor of abaloon eat with rice then drink a cup of red wine is so ...so...so...smooth and booth are not have any clash to my tongue.

Express

Sometimes it is hard for us to express our feelings especially to show our mind or intention to the person we love. Some of my friends said that it is very easy to say 'I Love You' to a girl if they already have feelings on you. It come out a question: how you know the girl have intention on you if she not show any action to you? Besides, before you want to express your love you will wonder that the girl will reject you or not. If reject, how will you run away from this awkard situation. So this is the main reason for me hard to express my feelings in front the girl that i interest.

Express...express...express.... what a hard action for a person who always find reason to shift off and cant face failure.

So harsh to hear that Hull City still remain in EPL next season...

A wonderful goal by gibson make me feel that newcastle united hope to reamin in EPL relive again ( although i am not magpie fans), however an own goal cause by damien duff on 38 mins already destroyed their hope, ut i still believe that they manage to equalize since the condition is just to be draw with aston villa. After 90mins my believe become mirage. A question came out from my mind : why a football club that have 128 years history yet have several potential and experience football player such as butt, owen, martins came out with such terrible result? the magpie fans should blame who? The players that who earn several ten thousands a week but can get the contrast result? The coach that no ability to retrieval the club? The board of directors who incapacity in manage the club?

Although we will not see the magpie play in EPL next season, i wish they will back to EPL again after a season playing in coca-cola championship league!